Luckyyyyy. I miss SB so bad. I was managing the top medical marijuana dispensary in town until that gravy train got derailed back in late October 2010. Was working there for 3 plus years and had been one of the managers for the last year until we got raided and closed down. Fucking political grandstanding sons of bitches. Before that I was a gym lackey for a few years at Ron Johnsonās boxing and kickboxing. That was a fun time. Wish Iād given up drinking before I started training. Wouldāve actually done something other than engage in stupid gym wars with my buddies and training partners. Lol
Yeah, I guess. Even if only to keep people from getting in trouble. I got no issues with people enjoying drugs and alcohol recreationally. But for myself, I need to stay the fuck off the weidman. Wish Iād never done anything. Well, other than mushrooms, LSD, and MDMA. Lol
Well I havenāt done any lsd in a couple years. The last time I did mdma was a few months ago with my girl and she had gotten it from a friend, and my buddy from work hooked me up with at least a quarter pound of shrooms and I havenāt taken any of those for at least 6 months. But when I slip up and start smoking again itās at least 1, more likely 2 prerolls, and on rare occasions 3, at 10 to 15 bucks each on average. And a pack or 2 of black and milds, and a half tank of gas driving around smoking all day. So itās 60 bucks on the lowest end, and closer to 90 on others. I canāt smoke and work.
I mean, Iām sure I could. I used to all the time. But these days I donāt like doing my job half-assed or not being at my best. So I fuck off work completely during my slip ups. Which is funny, because my current job is the biggest reason for my relapses. Iām just in a much better place mentally, emotionally, and physically when Iām not smoking. I really do get into beast mode when Iām completely sober. I can be pretty intolerant, and intolerable in this state. But Iām definitely clearer and sharper this way. And I donāt accept as much bullshit in my life. Except for the girlās bullshit. God dammit. Lol
But yeah, I only gave you the day breakdown because my smoking relapses usually donāt last more than a week or 2. Iām hopeful I can get to the point Iām at with alcohol and start putting some fucking years together.